This time I’m wondering about something that I just realized today. What would happen if my inspiration and inner guidance ushers me to shatter very thick matrices around me, which happen to be the ones that my whole ancestral lineage has maintained with “sacredness” throughout their whole lives? The answer would probably be that I would be questioned, misinterpreted, judged, criticized, ostracized and rejected from the tribe. At least, by the majority.
Let me see…. It’s not that I don’t want to be part of society. The thought of being a hermit in my home and not bother about the mankind is something I am not inclined to experience at this time. On the contrary… I do want to engage in sporadic, but filtered social interactions, but without people draining the hell out of me, which of course, leaves me feeling exhausted.
I’m no afraid of the repercussions that my decision of interacting sparingly may, or may not happen, but I do think that eons of the accumulation of belief systems, social conditioning, programming, indoctrination, and genetic codification have a very big impact on how I have been expressing myself through my life in this specific physical vessel. That means, that what I think are my personality, identity, world-view, belief systems, and in essence my “story”, has been established that way.
The past does not exist, so I’m just downloading all this codification every single moment. Wow, what a huge amount of energy goes into maintaining all these programs active! if I’m not that, then… what am I? The only answer that comes to mind is that I am a consciousness super-imposed over all that is, having a humanoid form, but that is formless at the same time. A conduit of Infinite’s Intent, an unfolding work of art, the only being in existence in my specific reality.
If I am the only being in existence (for you, the one reading this, the only being in existence is you), there can be no tribe to be part of. Nobody apart from myself to refer to, nobody apart from myself to accept my existence, nobody apart from myself to justify my actions to, nobody’s reaction to be aware of. There is only a tribe of one. I am self-referring, self-sovereign, self-reliable.
If I am aware of this spectacular realization, then the illusion of “energy leakage” could exist no more. There could be no drainage of energy while interacting with others. There’s nowhere to leak energy, because I am everywhere. All that I can experience is myself. It’s time to remember this.